Inner Goal

Wow, time really does fly! I came to some wonderful realizations last week but I haven't had a chance to post them before today. I realize that I'm happy. Truly happy about the way I look and feel. Therefore, I changed my goal from 160 lbs to 180 lbs. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to lose those last 20 lbs and be truly slim and skinny, but I've accomplished what I've set out to do and getting hung up on a number I've never seen on my body before seems like an incredibly dumb thing to do. All that does is fuel negativity when looking in the mirror shows me a beautiful person and I like what I see. So, I've decided that I am at goal. I am healthier than I've ever been, I wear a smaller size than I ever remember wearing in my life (even in high school), I can sit in an airplane with plenty of room to spare, I feel confident and sexy, I make better choices on a daily basis, etc. I am there by all measuring sticks I set out in front of myself a year and a half ago. So I am happy and I will continue to lose slowly, but I will no longer be hung up on a number like I have been for too long. The weight will come off without a doubt but it may take a year or two, I have time and I'm never going to fail myself.